Tuesday, November 30
gosh everyone looked so beautiful! i mean more than usual. everyone! i have the feeling vank and i had the least makeup on. zhi min was so pretty! limin and sheryl were so pretty! debra was so pretty! janet's so pretty with contacts! ahhh!! andd zhi min was prom queen. whee! hahaha. psst. i sat next to the prom queen in sec2 okay. haha. anyway. everyone looked so grownup.. with all their beautifully done up eyes.. gosh. i really had a shock when i couldn't recognise so many people. beautiful gowns.. beautiful eyes.. i have beautiful friends! haha. eh ppl don't tell others who's that girl who looked like she didn't put on any makeup arh. it's too embarrassing. i actually looked the youngest for once. even next to gen and jan. maybe i should have gone to a pro like everyone else. but ah well i saved money.
hilton has nice toilets. this is an important point to note. nobody tried to trick me into going into the guys' toilet. this is also important, probably because jp was nowhere near me all night. wandered down orchard after it all.. all the heels clicking down the road.. oh another important point. for the first time i wore the more conservative heels. wahahah. see why i looked so horribly young next to all of you beautiful people? anyway. clicked very far down.. in my opinion anyway.. went to lido.. no movies showing.. cine.. half of us went to taxi, some to the incredibles and a few decided not to watch and went back to the room. it wasn't that cold in the cinema but i didn't have my shawl and started freezing a little. imagine chris and her holey dress. stupid joan wasn't cold at all. i accidentally kicked the aforesaid stupid joan several times shaking my legs. wahaha. and oh btw she looks quite good as a girl. you know how we always say joan's got nice eyes, nice smile, blah blah she ought to be a girl? well. she decided to be a girl for once. and i couldn't recognise her. and i couldn't stop screaming. and i couldn't stop staring. so. joan please be a girl in future, i assure you you'll be very much sought after. but i guess you can take care of yourself. but if you start looking all pretty now who's going to pose as my bung next year? must remember to ask you nicely again if you can continue the service next year cos really i can't find anyone else. and i really want to be safe next year. when i'm all alone. and i think i'm getting scared already.
clicked our heels back to hilton. went up quietly in groups. oooh we bought yummy doughnuts from 7/11 and ate them. wahaha. how unglam. beautiful gowns, high heels and doughnuts. hahaha. didnt get caught at all. i still can't believe our luck. no one complained about the sheer number. or the noise. or anything. even though we were being watched. maybe cos half of us fell asleep and i tried to for about 2 hours. you really thought i was sleeping arh? i could hear every word of the conversation. why do you think i made noises every now and then? didnt want to fool y'all. in the end i gave up and sat up. what the heck were we talking about all morning til 5? besides how gorgeous limin is? and how she should be a model cos she's got the features and the body? and that short impromptu speech i made thanking her for being nice to me in sec1 when everyone avoided me during work attachment cos i was from 1e2. none of you ever knew right? hah. i remembered her name and face. like how i will always be grateful to siti for holding hands with us during the sec2 debate even though her class was on the other side. even though the entire level was on the other side. some things you remember far more than lesser things. it's this stuff that means a lot to me. then somehow we all rolled over and went to sleep.. and i didnt take off my contacts. woke up at 8.. we were all squished together in weird positions.. bwong's head was near my butt i think. or my feet. i was sleeping half on gen's stomach half on the pillow. washed up. joan and debra went googoogaga over my toothpaste. debra can squeeze a heart! joan can't!! wahahhaa. walked to macs for breakfast. gosh so embarrassing. big tshirt, shorts, and shoes wayy too big for me. haha. vank and i walked together cos everyone else was so nicely dressed in jeans. tripped carrying my food over the shoes but i didnt fall. see i might trip a lot but i don't always fall. fooled joan that last night she kept saying someone's name in her sleep. she believed me. hahaha. and i always thought i was bad at lying. but i guess she figured i would know best cos when she fell asleep her head was next to mine. went back to sit around and talk. jean chris sheeni and bev were snoring away.. vank took a video.. i dunno if she really kissed sheeni cos i didn't see.. packed and left. and we might never meet again til we collect our results. this sucks you know. i really want to meet again. but it's so hard to coordinate. even in the u.. you might meet again. but i won't be meeting y'all again as classmates. friends yes classmates no. it's the path i've chosen. argh. oh well. make do. pictures, videos, memories.. yupp. thanks for everything. you were the best class in my heart.
eh if you owe me money for the photos, pay up. i'm 80 bucks below the minimum for my bank account, and it's the end of the month. my mum will screech when i get the balance. and i'm freaking pissed with my dad. he forces me to volunteer to help at the church tonight and then tries to make it sound like i wanted to! damnit i'm tired, i had 3 hours of sleep last night, i didn't sleep well just now cos ppl kept calling, and i'm emotionally gone okay! i'll die if i go to choa chu kang tonight. having a migraine. really really drained. it's not fair they're always picking on me. not my sister. how come some people have it all. whatever. i am not smiling tonight. let people think what they want. i don't smile at people when i'm tired. so if my parents get complaints that their daughter is very unfriendly.. too bad.
it must've been love.
6:10 pm
xoxo
